i was just thinking...

what is consciousness?
whats it to be subconscious?

whats a neuro connection?
a neuro network?

are we all just consisted of billions of little connections being born and killed off?

is there a soul?

what is a mental state?
is it the same thing as an emotional state?

is there a such thing as a permanent state? a consistent state which defines us as an individual?

if a personality consists of billions of neuro connections, its not so difficult to believe that multiple 'states' could exist in which the brain learns to fire connections to create systems to handle stress and trauma which the mind had never had the chance to form other healthier more consistent ways at which to conform to stress

but that just makes me wonder, what is a soul? and is the soul consistent? and how is it that the soul is so malleable in the physical, is it not consistent in the ethereal?
or is it that we are everything and nothing at the same time, able to adapt to a physical world

i dunno, i wanna do some experiments