Wow.Funny you should mention that. I'm a major dissociative. I actually have spent long periods of time avoiding looking at myself in the mirror. I haven't had a body for most of my life. I found out I was a D.I.D. er about two years ago. My therapist was a D.I.D. er but has integrated. The problem (obviously) with traumatic sexual abuse is that when it happens before you can speak, you have no idea that you are doing it. It only started coming up when my therapist would ask me to see myself and I could not see myself. I have to imagine other people when I try to see myself. I've had to force myself to look at my reflection. Kind of odd to hear other people going through that.