Wander, I am so glad you are getting a pass tomorrow! It sounds like a good plan. You get to get out and have some fun exploring just like you've been wanting to, while staying safe.

It seems so hard to see sometimes how we can be a danger to ourselves when euphoric, because it's the very time we think nothing could go wrong, right?! We're invincible! Except we're not (dammit! lol) And it's such a place to be! -- hoping not to crash, but not wanting to even come down to the middle zone to try to avoid it at the same time as wanting to go even higher! Ah, BP.... such a mind-messer...so much contradiction.

I had to laugh a little when you said, "Stupid Olanzapine making me think straight." I know, right?! But it's better than crashing, that's for sure.

It's so bringing to mind my last strong euphoric high. I didn't want to hear squat about being good -- it DID feel like being told to be a good little girl! But I *was* pretty well like a 6 year old on a sugar rush, lol!

Alas, they are right. The ride doesn't last. Better to get off the ferris wheel where you can step out onto a platform than to be thrown down from the top.

Don't worry about being "normal". You will be awesome. As ever. Just not flying without a parachute.