you know me I have to say this but you said you believe you are a dissociative and that your treatment provider said you may be a dissociative even though the test results in january did not diagnose you as a dissociative disorder. if you are dissociative then you know how it feels to be a dissociative and switching...plus you posted in this thread that you are getting confused with so much conflicting information. my point maybe its time for you to take a break in all the research you are trying to do before you cause your self more problems...

that said short and simple...

differences between borderline and a dissociative disorder is in the diagnostics for each disorder, and information that you can not find online because you have to go through treatment providers....

for example if you have borderline personality disorder (a mood and behavior disorder) you know what it feels like when your moods and behaviors switch and you fit the diagnostic criteria for that disorder. for some people they feel one way for others they feel something different...(purposely keeping it vague so as to not add to your confusion of what your own problems are vs what you are researching)

a dissociative disorder is in the dissociative disorders category because its key symptom is dissociation. a person who has a dissociative disorder knows whether they are feeling their dissociative symptoms or not. each person has their own dissociative symptoms and triggers (again purposely keeping it vague so as not to cause you more confusion as to what and how you feel vs what you are researching and possibly self diagnosing/ self trying to fit into what may not already be there for you)

for some people that means they feel one way and for others they feel another way....example when I am feeling my dissociation symptom I feel numb where as when my wife feels her dissociative symptom she doesnt feel numb.

my suggestion since you are already getting too much information (evidenced by your statement of not knowing what to believe and confusion) instead of looking to us for how you should or should not feel, what problems you should or should not be having and all that stuff, go on what your treatment providers have already diagnosed you with and contact them. let them know you want to know how you feel when you switch and they will help you to discover what dissociation feels like to you.