I am. I don't really remember how I was doing before. It seemed pretty good, but I did need a med adjustment to come up (which I totally agreed with, so that's contradictory evidence, isn't it?) I REALLY need to start charting, or something again. I am so confused. Regardless, the election did not help my state of mind(!)

I think I am compartmentalizing. Or something. There's a numbness. I've gone more internal, and that's never a good thing. Left inside there, it's a bad rumination loop. But life's been no cupcake. I'm being massively let down by some people IRL, and feeling really betrayed. Talking good and supportive, yet leaving me flapping in the wind. It's like watching myself crash and burn in slow motion. Soooo, there's plenty piling on. So freaking much stress. It kind of feels like the election is just one more layer. So the compartmentalizing and numbness are just kind of survival mode, you know? I HATE feeling helpless, so I have to block it out on some level.

So I am trying to stay busy. Stay out of my head. Outside of myself. So here I am(!) And watching half a season of an hour-long show back to back last night. It's pretty messed up, but it is easier to be inside someone else's headspace, the character, even so.

Sorry, blathering on.
The answer is "yes".