85 you are our elder statesman we can't leave you behind ,I am pretty world savy at 48,you however have first hand knowledge of things that I can only read about and imagine ( I love history,what was done in the past remains the best indicator of the future) so many people do not remember there parents and teachers saying respect your elders and learn from them, they whole climate towards our elders is wrong in my opinion , I chewed a younger person out in another community I belong to for wishing there parents would just die so they did not have to visit them anymore at the nursing home , I really started a brawl by telling them there parents should not be in a nursing home , that they were a real piece of work for not taking care of them, it makes me crazy how people can be so ungrateful for there life and care from there parents , I can understand respite care ,because care giver burnout happens all to often ,but surrendering your parents to a home and wishing them gone just pushed my buttons ,they found one of my lines in the sand and crossed it ,I frequently enjoy coffee with a group of elderly Veterans,because they have first hand knowledge of so much and the wisdom that these people have can't be found in any book .
Speaking of which Semper fi Happy Birthday anybody who was or is currently in USMC.
We used to at my house have a living history night once a month ,and got to know many of the local native Americans tribes who are some amazing people with important things passed down ( they do not forget there elders and they are some fascinating story tellers because for many of them oral history from there ancestors is the only true history of these great people and it is a privilege to be "read in" to it , when my mom passed and we had her Memorial they only portion that I did not record was a rare multi tribal elder live performance by them in a native American song honoring mothers and children ,it's rarely performed ,let alone by multi tribal elders to honor a non native American woman and mother , I have a vast collection of music from early tin pan alley jazz to modern artists but that is something I will never be able to have anywhere but in my own memory of witnessing it. So trust me little turtle I read a lot including all your postings never feel alone or think you can be forgotten , we share this common space and common ground and I look forward to reading how you are and what's on your mind, you have important things to say and everyone needs feedback , talking to the walls is operating in a vacuum ,although walls are great to vent at when something really angers you , they let you collect your thoughts into a more helpfull dialog, since my stoke I do organize my thoughts alot more with my walls and ironicaly sometimes they do silently provide clues in interesting ways, I have some things that are usual for me and one of those things is the way my house is lit,although I was raised Catholic I have adopted some other beliefs, such as leaving one light always burning for the souls of the departed to find there way back, this is a native American practice that seems to resonate in me, anyway summer of 2014 there was a shadow on my bedroom wall ,that was normally not there it showed up one Saturday and by Tuesday it was getting on my nerves trying to figure out why and how it was there , so I finally called my best friend and got the answer , that shadow was someone provoking me to make that call because my friend and I know how each other are just by the sound of there voice and she said hello world in a way I have never heard her speak ,it took me twenty minutes to get her to tell me what was wrong , Saturday afternoon one of her childhood friends lost there battle with cancer and she was devastated, she really needed a shoulder to cry on and a hug ,but she worries so much about my health she didn't want to call me or tell me anything was wrong, so walls can sometimes talk in strange ways , and that shadow was gone that night ,and since I could not go to her and be there for her in the flesh I called another friend who is also a psychologist to be my in person contact for her, I will never turn my back or leave a friend in need that includes all of you.

Misterpain