For good or for bad I'm calming down....reconnecting with my logical and rational mind and accepting that my emotional mind has its points too. I'm becoming more cohesive and complete....all aspects of myself are melding together to form a more complete version of myself. I'm whole....still in pain and still not what would be considered officially stable but I will refrain from calling people attempted murderers and will find and hold tight to my center and better version of myself. Thank you to the many people who have chatted with me, talked me down from the emotional ledge and allowed me to express myself.