It is wise to question your diagnosis's when you first get them. In the end they are indicators for the right treatment to help you live a functional life. When were you diagnosed? Is it bipolar 1 or 2?

Apparently there are 'normal' people. My sister and parents are three I know. I just lucked out in the mental illness department in my immediate family. They are amazingly stable ALL the time. At times I am envious but other times I actually enjoy seeing reality from a different POV.

I used to be diagnosed with BPD. Therapy either healed it or I never had it in the first place. Are you in therapy. I believe it is crucial for people who have chaotic lives. When were you diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar? For my Bipolar 1 therapy again helps tremendously. I was diagnosed bipolar in 2013. It has taken MANY med changes to find the ones that work and even then episodes occur, just less often.

If you doubt your diagnosis maybe get a second opinion. It sounds like you are suffering. I really hope you can find a way to feel more stable and peaceful. Keep posting, we are all here to help.