Yesterday I was given 2 doses of Olanzapine (Zyprexa) to bring me down from mania. It did. I slept 9 hours straight last night but woke feeling down and hungover. Now at 9.30am I feel the euphoria returning. IP now, going on leave with my Mum (doctor will only let me go on leave with my parents as he has spoken to them and knows they will watch me). can't wait to get out of this hospital into the sunshiny-day and play.

think I am going to turn down Olanzapine today. It seems to make me dull minded and low in mood. Anyway I had enough sleep last night to last days. Just wanted to share my joy. I will continue to take Lithium, Ritalin and Clonazepam PRN. Everything is wonderful.

Does anyone else want to push their mania to the edge to find out where the line between sanity and insanity lies? I feel so spiritual and want to explore that too.