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Originally Posted by Misssy2
I'm very skeptical about my Bipolar diagnosis.
It seems everywhere I turn around people have "bipolar".
Can't I just have a crappy personality?
Can't I just be snappy?
Can't I just be hyper and unable to sleep well?
I've also been "diagnosed" with Borderline.
Doesn't everyone hate being abandoned?
Doesn't everyone have relationship problems?
I struggle with the labels..especially when medication doesn't help me much.
Then again...with Borderline and Bipolar they SAY sometimes medication is ineffective.
I'm just wondering if anyone besides me is skeptical about this diagnosis? Or maybe I am really Biplolar/Borderline.
I don't think I have ever known anyone to be even keel...I've lived a chaotic life...are there really people out there that are normal?
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As people have mentioned it's very common to reject the diagnosis. The sicker you are, the more likely you might deny it.
Is it possible to just have a crappy personality? Yes, but if you cause distress to yourself and others it's probably a good idea to seek treatment for the crappy personality.
Nobody likes being abandoned unless it's by someone you're trying to get rid of. Borderline fear of abandonment is much stronger and more invasive with consequences to your mental health and the health of people close to you.
Everyone will have relationship problems from time to time but with borderline this is a pervasive and consistent issue with again, very serious consequences to self and others.
Yes, some people are even keel. Everyone has bad days but bipolar is a whole nother animal than just a bad day. When I'm manic, it's like being blackout drunk. I will say/do things I just cannot imagine I could do....I'm not in control....some chemical takes over my body and runs the show of my brain.
Get a second, third or even forth opinion as I have. You will still probably doubt the DX sometimes but when coming out of a manic episode and crashing into souls crushing depression you will probably see things a bit different.
Not all people with bipolar respond or can tolerate medications and some people fall into the mild end of the spectrum and don't even need them.
Just ask yourself...."do I need help". Ask yourself "do the people around me think I need help". If you answer yes to either question, it's smart to keep seeing doctors and getting the help. Remember, the opinion of one professional would not be enough to satisfy most nor should it be enough.
I'm sorry you are struggling and I relate to questioning the DX......I do it often. But something isn't right and my deepest truest evaluation of myself says I need help. So I'm listening....for now. Hopefully I will see more consistency in my self as I progress through treatment. I hope you get the help you need as well. (((Hugs)))