That's the problem. If working out feels like a chore you're not gonna do it. I know for me the only exercise I like is riding a stationary bike. Everything else feels like a huge pain in my ***. Unfortunately I don't have time to go to the gym anymore bc I don't have a sitter for my son. I'm trying to figure out how I could fit an exercise bike into my moms tiny house but to no avail so far.

I also agree with Elsa mars. Losing weight is working out but also changing your diet. That's where I fail and fail HARD. I do well for like five days but then the weekend comes and I lose it. Drinking every ******* night that I don't have to work doesn't help. But I like drinking. So I dunno.

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. I think you do have to focus on loving yourself for who you are. Try not to focus on your perceived failures and focus on what you have achieved instead. For instance, you're still alive even though I'm sure your bp could have taken you down. Sometimes when I have bad days I remind myself I could have ended it all but I chose life instead bc I'm just that strong. You're strong too. I see it in you. You have to see it in yourself. I hope one day you can.