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Originally Posted by Wander
Yesterday I was given 2 doses of Olanzapine (Zyprexa) to bring me down from mania. It did. I slept 9 hours straight last night but woke feeling down and hungover. Now at 9.30am I feel the euphoria returning. IP now, going on leave with my Mum (doctor will only let me go on leave with my parents as he has spoken to them and knows they will watch me). can't wait to get out of this hospital into the sunshiny-day and play.
think I am going to turn down Olanzapine today. It seems to make me dull minded and low in mood. Anyway I had enough sleep last night to last days. Just wanted to share my joy. I will continue to take Lithium, Ritalin and Clonazepam PRN. Everything is wonderful.
Does anyone else want to push their mania to the edge to find out where the line between sanity and insanity lies? I feel so spiritual and want to explore that too.
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I get very tempted when in happy mania or even slight disphoric mania to push the limits....but I don't. I take what they tell me to take "for the most part" and do actively try to come down from the heavens. It feels like being robbed....when I crash I always feel someone intentionally pulled me down. It's just awful. You know how when you're walking along the side walk and trip over your own feet but still look behind you as if to cuss out some imaginary person who tripped you, even though it was nobodies fault but your own? That is what my crashes from mania are like....I'm looking around for some imaginary person to blame for strealing my joy and power. It's pretty ridiculous.
Enjoy the fuzzy bunnies while they last and stay safe.