Please don't. Please don't stop talking/rambling. I think sometimes that is where truth is found.

I'm not sure how to do what you are describing. My shifts are so fluid I don't recognize it sometimes until after the fact.

I'm not really sure how to do it on purpose and that makes a part of me very anxious.

I do know and have figured out that there are pieces of me that are ANP and there are EPs that are there. They do what they do as needed. I have no control or understanding of it until after the fact.

I've talked about this here and feel like I'm running around the same tree for the hundredth time!!!

I'm not sure how to capture something on video that is so elusive from me that I don't realize it until after the fact.