At the end of yesterday my advocate got a letter from the legal department of the NHS trust, asking him to clarify his position/relationship to me, and also asking for a signed consent from me to talk to him.
Just the legal format of the letter knocked me
this is getting really serious.
fortunately I am being shielded somewhat by my advocate.
I still find it hard that the man I loved most from my most broken places has either done this or is allowing this to be done to me.
I cannot explain to you how deeply hurtful it is.
It hurts so much that it takes my breath away, it is such a deep betrayal.
EAch day, I try to pep talk myself into a better mind state.