I went on a date yesterday and was crushed he never texted me back. I fell into a deep depression yesterday, and I woke up today soooo irritable. I don't know if it's from not eating, as I've been anorexic for the past two months. I am a guy, I shouldn't be anorexic in the first place. I went from 170 to 130 now. And I have no appetite anymore and eating makes my stomach feels awful. I am just soooo irritable. I can't stand it. I took double my dose of geodon. I hope it helps. My emotions are going from overwhelmed when anyone speaks or being in public wanting to beat someone. (Not literally) I feel like I'm going to get a panic attack/anger attack from listening to my friend and roommate having a simple conversation. They keep asking me what's wrong and I'm like "nothing." I switch from laying in bed to driving my car all around town for no reason. I took 3 geodons to knock me out for a few hours. This is the weirdest range of emotions I've ever had. I am so confused for what's next. I've had mixed states but nothing like this. I would like some extra klonipin but I know that's not a good idea. This feels like the worst day of my life. And my hands and arms keep going numb, I think from stress. I'm also very cold. I have a sweater and winter jacket on today. I don't know if all this is stress related but in to lazy to go to a doctor today. I also don't feel like calling my psychiatrist or calling my mom. I feel like doing nothing. I think the only thing that would help right now is weed. But I'm not going to do that either. Too lazy to walk down to MLK Jr. Blvd and getting some. And that's all I'm gonna say right now.