I knew I was going to think and worry. Damn it, I was almost completely over things and moving on.

I'm leaning toward meeting with the VP but telling her I'm no longer interested in the position. If I'm not the AVP's first choice, how can I work with her if I do get a job reporting to her. Knowing she wanted someone else. Knowing that she didn't even want to interview anyone else, including me. I only know bits and pieces, so not the whole truth, but this just seems ****** to me. I think I'm actually more angry than anxious.

And I understand that if I do that, my expiration clock starts ticking and it's only a matter of time before we all part ways. And then I'm back to where I was before thinking about quit quitting.

Damn it, I was hoping for a peaceful weekend.

Edit: Now all I can think about is quit quitting.