i think a lot about just never going back to see my therapist, never answering his texts or calls if dont show up, never talking to him or seeing him ever again

i feel too close to him, i feel scared of that. its ****ing TERRIFYING

sometimes i envision me standing with him, and i have all these strings attached to him...and i think about takin ga giant pair of scissors and cutting them all

i dont feel well tongiht and i wish i could jus be euthanized. my voices have ceome back now and i hate them so much, i will probably regret posting this but idk