I've been the same for the past few days. My fault really for neglecting to take my meds...I'm running low, and wanted to try to see how I could function without them. At least I haven't been dumping every thought online. I'm actually proud of that.

I had a question: can restlessness be a part of depression? I so often see people describe their depression as involving slowing down, not having the energy to take care of oneself or do anything at all...meanwhile I'm here, and while yes, I self-neglect to a degree, I'm hyped up a lot of the time. My thoughts race like a news ticker, medication or not. I binge on food; I walk around just to do something and stay up late because I'm just restless. I'm near-incapable of relaxing: I need to be doing something, even if it's just a false feelng of accomplishment from stuff like online posting, watching lists of videos... Even if internally, I'm so miserable I don't see why I should bother existing. I'm physically depressed, feel like I'm going to cry, or rage, or like I want to destroy something. There are always negative feelings boiling just under the surface (heck, maybe that's where the energy comes from). And I absolutely drown in self-loathing. But I'm not slowed down. Just frustrated and distracted.

Oh, and before someone calls me a ***** with no real problems, all of this can easily get suppressed if a real emergency did happen. I can step out of myself enough to cope with serious, real-world personal issues. But it seems this self-generated, origin-less distress will always come back, no matter how good things are going.