I'm sorry you're feeling shame about it. I did too at first - well, not sure it was exactly shame, but something like that, I felt very shy about it and embarrassed. But now I tell my t often how much I appreciate her. For so many things - I feel her caring, she sees me, truly sees me for who I am, and just overall 'gets' me which is something rare for me because I grew up feeling like I was not worthy of being seen and so began my life long up until therapy with her habit of hiding from the world. I have written her several poems over the 5 years I've seen her, and we have spent countless sessions talking about my feelings for/about her and the gratefulness that I feel for her help. It was hard the first time, but it definitely got easier each time and now it's just natural like anything else we talk about. I wish you the best however you decide to handle it. I think your t would appreciate you saying "thank you". I would think everyone likes to hear when they're doing a good job.