Thanks Merlin,

However, my husband works full time plus overtime and we have a 10 year old son. There's no other person or people who might be able to help out with watching me just in case that happens. I am going to keep seeing my therapist and pdoc as scheduled and hopefully the increase in Lamictal and Trileptal will help with those symptoms. Believe it or not just being able to express myself on these posts really helps too. Someone is always there and I can just type myself into oblivion and get out my feelings. However I know the rule here about if they should become serious you are not allowed to voice them in this forum. So for the meantime I will continue praying and taking my meds. A good night's sleep also wouldn't hurt. Right now my main concern is to be safe and keep my hypomania an depression down to a point where I can manage it by myself. Thanks again for all your concern I really do need it as do many of us here.