i guess in my case i am not seeking him to pursue me... i am seeking me to cut all ties with him...i feel as if how close i am to him is a threat to my survival. so i think about this stuff as a way to envision my life without him in it anymore. i feel borderline obsessed with my T, and that is not okay with me

i woke up feling pretty sick. i slept offand on last night... i dont feel well at all

thanks for the feedback