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Old Nov 13, 2016, 10:38 AM
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Originally Posted by ScientiaOmnisEst View Post
I've been the same for the past few days. My fault really for neglecting to take my meds...I'm running low, and wanted to try to see how I could function without them. At least I haven't been dumping every thought online. I'm actually proud of that.

I had a question: can restlessness be a part of depression? I so often see people describe their depression as involving slowing down, not having the energy to take care of oneself or do anything at all...meanwhile I'm here, and while yes, I self-neglect to a degree, I'm hyped up a lot of the time. My thoughts race like a news ticker, medication or not. I binge on food; I walk around just to do something and stay up late because I'm just restless. I'm near-incapable of relaxing: I need to be doing something, even if it's just a false feelng of accomplishment from stuff like online posting, watching lists of videos... Even if internally, I'm so miserable I don't see why I should bother existing. I'm physically depressed, feel like I'm going to cry, or rage, or like I want to destroy something. There are always negative feelings boiling just under the surface (heck, maybe that's where the energy comes from). And I absolutely drown in self-loathing. But I'm not slowed down. Just frustrated and distracted.

Oh, and before someone calls me a ***** with no real problems, all of this can easily get suppressed if a real emergency did happen. I can step out of myself enough to cope with serious, real-world personal issues. But it seems this self-generated, origin-less distress will always come back, no matter how good things are going.
Sorry if I am wrong, but when you say restlessness you imply anxiety, as well? Because I kind of experience what you say but I experience this as anxiety
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