Moodswings70,
Since you are still really concerned and you are older than I assumed. I think I will talk a little less generally in case it helps.
I do understand about still worrying about this. I get anxious about lots of things. The only reason I don't worry about this is I'm married and attracted to my H. The fact that I always have and always plan to keep my vows makes it a mute point for me to worry about this particular thing.
I have felt sexual attraction for some of my gfs but never acted upon it. Because of my Christian upbringing it just seemed like a step to far. (Perhaps this is one of the things that causes you to feel a sense of crisis about this?) That being said, I am truly happy for people who are able to find love, gay or straight, whether they are at work or in my family. But times have changed, so this is a great time to talk about these things and of course it's nothing to feel bad about. I think our sexual urges just are what they are and are a part of what it is to be human. So I hope this extra information makes you feel less alone. And that you can move it all forward in this regard.