After an si urge today, I started thinking about some things going on in my therapy. I am realizing more and more that sometimes si, for me, is a way of avoiding the REAL issue. I can't remember the chain of thoughts that got me there. But anyway, avoidance is a big thing that I'm working on right now, and I just realized how si is sometimes another thing on the long list of things I do to avoid.

I use si to avoid:
-dealing with the underlying issues
-having to think about/deal with feelings
-letting my T in and bonding with her
-needing anyone

Anybody else noticing some similar patterns with your si behavior? And can anyone help me out in thinking this through- like tell me about how you might use si to avoid, and stuff like that?

I think this is a major breakthrough for me and I need some help exploring it.

Thanks!
Angela