Seroquel has been super effective for me in terms of squashing mania. I've had a few isolated moments of hypomania, but rarely lasting longer than a couple days.

I know this is taboo to say, but I miss it. I miss it even though my manias are bad enough to include psychosis and need hospitalization. Even though I hurt everyone around me. Even though I spend myself into debt.

I miss feeling like I have superpowers. I miss feeling like I have the whole universe figured out. I miss it even more because I still experience depressions (with psychosis). What good is treatment if I still get psychotically depressed but no highs? Does anyone else ever miss being manic or hypomanic?