I agree. You need a full diagnostic by a medical doctor and then possibly psychiatrist. You shouldn't be expected to live like this and either yourself or others might be hurt in the process. Take these symptoms very seriously and get help now. I see too many red flags to ignore what is happening. You've got some high anxiety and that is the least of your problems. Don't fret or worry however, there are very effective treatments out there and you could be feeling so much better very soon if you receive help. It might take some time to heal all of this but it can be done and you will need patience but perseverance.