im like an addict. i eat a very small amount of calories per day [im not sure if im allowed to post my number-it may trigger] and workout too much and i LOVE it. ive lost fifteen in a few weeks and its like a drug. i know its bad, but i cant stop. im only happy when im pushing my limits and not eating. i belong to a pro-ana website and go one 3,4,5 times a day or more, checking for new tips or tricks or techniques i love to look down on people for their food choices [bad- i know] and add up in my head how many calories they're eating and vow to eat way less. there are foods i wont even go near and i love that achy hungry feeling. its my body eating itself. it makes me feel godly. and a little crazy.