I'm a train wreck inside. I can function, but its like functioning chaos. My moods are erratic from one extreme to the next. I have Bipolar Type II, PTSD, anxiety disorders and phobias, mild OCD. I was molested as a child, sexually abused by my first boyfriend emotionally and mentally abused by my parents. I don't know what its like to feel loved and valued, I'm starved for love and affection yet terrified of it because I don't know it. Also scared of it due to my PTSD. I have psychosomatic symptoms...tingling in the forehead, dizziness and arm/hand tremors.

I'm a disaster. Where do I even start to put myself back together? I've been in therapy for years but I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere and I just don't know what to do. I'm on meds too. A lot of meds. But I'm still a mess.