You don't say what you're eating the rest of the day, but if you're trying to avoid eating through the earlier part of the day, skipping meals, anything like that, I'll tell you right now that that's contributing a lot to what you're doing. By the time you get home, you're so damned hungry you really can't control the hunger anymore. That's why you're eating to the point that I"m sure you'd feel sick even if you didn't have a history of purging.

Try this for a few days, see if it helps you avoid that binge in the evening: a good breakfast, mix of protein, carbohydrates (preferably complex carbs), and some fat; a reasonable but slightly large feeling lunch -- maybe a big sandwich, or soup and salad, or sandwich and soup combo, again a healthy mix; then a mid afternoon snack, an apple with peanut butter would probably be ideal. See if that helps control that evening binge you're getting into. I'll be it does.

What's more, if you read the "real" stuff on weight loss, you'll find that the latest studies all say pretty much the same thing: people who eat more times in the day tend to weigh less than people who eat fewer times. Huh??? Yep. If you eat a smaller amount when you're hungry, you won't get so hungry that you overeat.

Of course, i know that if it were that easy, I'd weigh forty pounds more than I do! And I wouldn't feel so disgusting right now about the ten pounds I've put on so far. The psychological stuff is damned complex and difficult, but the practical side is a tiny bit easier...

If you can possibly do it, and I do know it's hard, try eating a good breakfast for a few days, and see if it helps. I also keep a few emergency snacks around me most of the time. Packages of peanuts in the car, a PowerBar in my purse, things like that. When I was more acitve and still starving myself, I used to keep tiny cans of tuna in my car, and I'd eat those as I sat in traffic. Just little bits of food that felt safe to me, when I most needed it.

I hope that helps a little.