Woke up with a knot like a planet this morning. Mother did it again. I asked her to keep out of my life in the nicest possible way just til I have been through therapy for a while. She keeps phoning my best friend, who tells me everything and I tell her.
I didn't rec a bd card, which left me upset and is totally contradicting what I'm saying I know.....I posted in abuse about that......nos she's saying she sent a card with money in it and did I receive it?????? What is going on? Lost in post (bit coicidental) playing games?....probably.......forgot her only childs birthday and posted late........wouldn't put it past her!!

stupid things like this are setting of my anxiety, supposed to be going to a bonfire party tonight, I really am not in the mood to face the world at all right now, I could quite happily be a hermit crab, live under a rock and procrastinate for ever.

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH nope still dont feel better........

sorry, had to get all this off my chest.

jin x