Ended up feeling moderately depressed yesterday. Like I felt better in the am but it fell apart in the afternoon. I was extremely anxious and was unable to write my lesson plans or complete any work for my online class. I didn't get to sleep until midnight even after taking valerian root and melatonin.

I'm sick with anxiety today. I took off work because my son claimed he was sick (which as it turns out he really wasn't as he's running around like normal). I'm afraid I will get in major trouble for taking off because we just had a four day weekend. I'm afraid I'll be fired over it. Which is unreasonable, at most they would warn me not to do it again and that's it. They're not going to fire me in the middle of the school year. But that's how I feel. I can't breathe and my chest is tight just thinking about it. But there's nothing I can Do now.

I feel so anxious. I hope I calm down as the day goes on. I actually have to write my lesson plans today and do my school work. I don't know how I'm going to manage that. Just thinking about opening my computer is upsetting me.