I understand. I've been in that kind of "mood" all day though thankfully things are calming down.

You're facing a difficult choice. I face that same choice myself. Only you can decide. Personally, it may have been selfish but I chose to at least fight at not being that pure evil. I didn't want to be another statistic. Another evil person. I have to believe I'm better than that, and it seems to help, I've been able to keep myself in check in critical ways at least.

I share your distrust of psychologists. Frankly, I think they're all incompetent losers who somehow think they can fix themselves by trying to fix others. Pfft.