For the past year or so, I've been focusing on having better and better orgasms and will do this technique called "edging" where you let yourself get really close to Orgasm a bunch of times and then slow down or even stop for a minute. Then after teasing yourself like this a bunch of times, I finally let it go and I get super wet and about a teaspoon of liquid comes out. I don't think that it's pee and it's probably a very tiny, tiny squirt. Maybe that's what you're experiencing? I'm sorry that you haven't had an orgasm because they are amazing!! I hope that you will figure out how to let yourself really go and experience your first orgasm!