i'd recommend u get help NOW. i felt much the same when i was in the early stages of anorexia, i would get a high off not eating, but it won't last. u'll crash, and probably sooner rather than later...i gather ur into swimming from your photo and signature...i do track, and anorexia completed wrecked havoc on my track career - i was physically unable to compete for a few months b/c i would black out everytime i got out of head, so i couldn't even stand up straight let alone run! in the end i preferred track to being anorexic so that was my incentive to get better. trust me, sports + ED are not a good combination - physically impossible to excel at both! but yeah, i'd really recommend seeing someone...trust me, u really don't want this to go any further...it will achieve absolutely nothing.