So... for the first time I realize it was mania for the first time. I mean I always knew something was wrong when I was acting crazy but now I know and I really want to tell my social worker. They think it's just anxiety/depression (my social worker and psychiatrist) but I knew something was being overlooked. I feel high as a kite and I feel like I'm mentally all over the place and really hyper. But at times I feel like I'm going to jump out out of my skin and few random suicide thoughts go across my mind, even though I'll never do it. It's like the early stages, I want to cut or harm myself when something bad happens
I dunno...