Hopestheory:

I also agree with Mal. Definitely discuss with your doctor your feelings. I used to be the same way. I am currently taking 20 mg. Prozac every day and my OCD is actually alot better -- some of it was ritualistic and some of it was intrusive thoughts. I still get those but they have diminished quite a bit. There is hope in this situation and it is very highly treatable!

Best of luck,
Kimberly.