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Originally Posted by Jasmina
Thanks sticky_boy for reading. I appreciate it. Of course he's a loser. I see this now. I should've kept my emotional distance when he told me he had sold drugs before and still smokes. I don't know how much this factor plays a role in my situation or even at all. Lately, I've had the nagging feeling the he may be selling again. I wasn't into all that. Yet accepted him since it was a part of who he was. Which I always thought was addiction. Hmmm It just isn't me. He was and is obsessed with it (wax).
Question:. Why keep me around for that long, not to mention the distance, if I ultimately meant nothing? I'm not sure what he got out of it.
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He kept you on the line and ensured you'd be there if he ever really wanted you and was able to live a robust life away from you when he chose. He had the best of both worlds. I don't know if his drug use and dealings had anything to do with it. I've known some sweet dealers and some who obviously had psychopathy or NPD. You said it isn't you and you don't sound like you want that in your life. You have the right to make that choice and it appears you are seeing many things in a new light. (((Hugs)))