I remember feeling like this a few times when I was in my twentysomethings. (I'm 30 now, but it feels like a lifetime ago.)

I remember panicking when events (NYE, birthdays, etc.) were coming up and I wasn't sure of my "station" within the group. Will I be invited? Wanted?

It's almost sad how being in the in can make us feel so high and being on the outs can make us feel so low. The times I was in control of planning the event, inviting/uninviting people, etc. always felt like the "good" nights out.

As I got older, however, I learned it really has very little to do with not being worthy. Turst me, you ARE worthy. Group dynamics can change at the drop of a hat and there's not MUCH we can.

The only thing you CAN do is make yourself more valuable. Be the planner. The organizer. You may even have to be the bank. I've noticed she who has the money to put the down payment on the club access has the power.

Good luck! x0x0