Hi Artchick. I'm new here and was just reading your post. It sounds a lot like the post I wrote (minus the dying alone part) online for one of my classes in which we had to watch a stupid self help video and comment on it. The video itself wasn't that bad, but one of the comments a fellow student wrote about how we should only surround ourselves with people who uplift us got my back up so bad! I tried to stop myself from posting, but it was too late and there was no erase post option. Ooooops! This is an ableist/saneist world. We are all taught that happy emotions are the only acceptable ones, even worse is that we are not taught how to regulate our emotions. This should be taught from childhood and continue throughout our whole lives! And in my belief, one should not have to pay for these services! This cycle of negative self worth has to stop somewhere. Not for you, well yes for you, but I'm talking more about society. There's my rant! I hope you are doing well where ever you are!