This therapist is abusing her power over you in astonishing ways. I understand your desperation though with the limited options you have. Have you considered phone or online therapy? Many professionals provide these and I can't imagine there would be no one to take you with your problem that way, plenty of possibilities. It might even be easier if you could keep a certain distance from them while processing this?
The story with my former therapist was nothing like yours in terms of disrespect and abuse, but my T did treat me in a very unprofessional way and kept imposing himself, infusing our interactions with his issues towards the end. I also temporarily lost respect and hope for therapy, but after a short while of frustration, I was very relieved when I left him... he was mostly just expanding my problems and introducing new ones into my life at that point. I did not just leave one day, there was hesitation and back and forth for a while, but when I finally left, I felt very empowered and happy that I did not let him abuse me and use the therapy to gain personal gratification. This relief and confidence only increased with time when I started working with my current T (after a couple months with no therapy) -- it's been an entirely different experience, a helpful and positive one. It also proved that the former therapy was much more the result of my Ts issues than my own, which my current T agrees with.
You mention that other therapists don't want to hear your story. I don't know what the original story was that you wanted to use therapy for, but it does not sound like she is addressing that at all. She has made it all about her and her opinions, decisions etc and now you are dealing with someone else's *** instead of progressing with your stuff.
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