Keep in mind that the opinion I'm about to give is based on my own experience as a person with severe social anxiety, some agoraphobia from time to time, bipolar and some PTSD.

I'm a different sort of person. When I'm stable or depressed I'm very quiet. I go with the flow and rarely give an opinion on anything. Not enough energy or confidence. Cause the truth is I am different and usually see things much different than the majority of people. So it's best that I don't involve myself in debates of any kind because it's rare someone is even capable of seeing my point of view. So when stable or depressed I'm just very observant and quiet. People seem intrigued by quiet types. Not everyone, but some people enjoy pulling you out of your shell and you will experience great pleasure when meeting people with this quality. It will feel like home. Then I have my paranoid side which can't be around people and agoraphobia sets in as does other very unfunctional thought processes. So I allow myself my time away and those who love me are still by my side when I come out the other end. Manic me gives my opinion too freely and I alienate myself from others but it does feel good to think you have something to say I guess. It has its upsides.

My advise to you is to put great effort into working on your social anxiety and putting yourself out there. So many wonders await you when you open up to the right people. You will have experiences beyond your wildest imagination. So see a doctor and get some help so you can get on to the adventure making. (((Hugs))))