!!!UPDATE!!!

Well last night was a crisis. Here was my day....
I went to church with my ex in the morning. The church is right across the street from the church so she just walked over. It went really good then we went to the park to make out. I asked her if we could do intimate stuff and she got mad and accused me of that's all I want from her. She said she wasn't feeling good so I took her out got some food and we went back to the park. We did some intimate stuff I took her back to the church we held each other telling we love each other making out and she went home.
I went over to my sisters and I took her out to eat and we went out drinking. I was suppose to be getting our there meeting new people but I always had my ex on my mind.
After drinking a bit I called my ex asking to see her before I went home so we could end the day on a good note. Her dad was home and yelling at her. She refused I got really depressed told her I'd kill myself if she wouldn't. She still wouldn't and stopped talking to me.
I called a friend and told him I was going to do something stupid. He rushed on his way to me. I parked at the church trying to call ex she wouldn't awnser. I started cutting my friend pulled up so I stopped doing that. I went to his house talked then went home. I tried calling over 20 times and nothing. She deleted me off Facebook so it's official now hah... anyways I tried calling her on mom's phone she said hello I said please don't hang up she hung up. Mom called her dad telling him it's not just me she has been saying she loves me and seeing me secretly. I could hear him yelling at her in the background.
Anyways that was my night. My case worker for mental health came by today. I'm just really depressed but not going to hurt myself. She's looking into once a week could counseling right now I do once a month therapy.
Well you all were right. I should of stayed away. Is hard because I went from being with her every day and night to this. It's really hard but I have no choice but to move on now.