Whenever I get like this I'm always asked why I feel this way. Why would I want to kill myself? What triggered it? What is so wrong with my life that I need to escape from it?

And the truth is there is nothing wrong. No reason to feel like this. No reason to want out. But still I do. Far too often.

I wish I knew the answer. I wish I could say it's x y and z causing me to feel this way..then maybe I would be one step closer to being able to stop it from happening.

Instead I just feel stupid and pathetic. What right do I have to feel like this? How dare I even consider killing myself when other people have it so much worse.

I shouldn't feel this way. And that just makes it worse.