After reading so much on here lately about T's changing, I'm scared that mine will someday too. I feel bad for even worrying about this, because she is so amazing in every way and I can't imagine her doing some of the things you guys have had your T's do. But I bet in the beginning you couldn't imagine your T doing that either. I don't know what I would do if my T turned mean or changed rules on out of session contact or started to act differently. I don't think anything like that will happen, but what if it does? How will I cope? Right now the only thing I can think of that I'd do if something like that happened is not something that's good. I would be completely devastated and lose all hope. I really don't think she would change, but the idea of her burning out or getting sick of me scares me to death. How do I deal with these worries? I know worrying won't help, but I can't help it that I am. And I can't talk to my T about this, because I don't want her to know I'm worried she would ever do this. I think it would be insulting and rude. And right now she's totally wonderful and has given no sign that she would ever do something bad. But what if years down the road something changes? What do I do?
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