I have been feeling very similar and am afraid that I have no answers. The only thing I think that I can do for myself to try to help is to stop using this site. Honestly, I have had the discussion with my T and she didn't say that she wouldn't. I am glad about that because she should never promise something that she cannot predict but it leaves doubt that is only intensified by reading on here.

I have started an email which I was planning on reading her tomorrow and in it is this issue, again. I am unsure whether to share it or not or whether I should just focus on what we have right now, possibly stopping using PC for a while.

I wish you well.