Yes I really do. I do a lot of bodywork as I had huge problems through lack of touch. I can now tolerate a massage and sometimes book one when my t is away. I use mindfulness and meditate briefly every morning setting an intention for the day. But it's hard work and I am tired at having to work so hard to appear normal and function at work. Relationships are beyond me and it is very lonely although I am getting better at tolerating my own company now my children are leaving home. Even they have no idea what a struggle life is.