Yes, I understand only too well what you're expressing. It's the despair and self loathing of not having been able to lead the life you wished you could have. Yes, society is all about planting ideas in our minds - ideas of greatness - but it falls short time and time again to mention the courage, the determination, or the will to carry on against the odds, in those who battle day in and day out with mental illness. People such as yourself.



I bet you have made many efforts on other occasions but you didn't all the time because you have AvPD. It's understandable. You're doing okay.