Sometimes it is hard to articulate what we are feeling. Feelings can be so tricky. That doesn't invalidate them or make them wrong. They are real and your experience right now. I hope you start to see that your are not weak, wrong or stupid. You have taken a first step and reached out. I am sorry that what you are feeling right now is so painful. Maybe it will get easier to see that you are not alone and there are others that understand. I know I do. Please take care and PM me anytime.

BB