Me, probably! Due to an absolute refusal to be willing to trust anyone a hairbreadth more than I have to, to survive. In my therapy I spent most of my time trying to guess the therapist's thoughts and predict what she would say and do, and why, and carefully curating my disclosures and keeping her away from me to protect myself from this threatening total stranger I was locked in a room with.

I was too scared, distrustful, and good at BSing for it to work. I don't know if I will ever try again. I was too busy protecting myself to do anything else. I have some healing to do alone before I can consider taking the plunge again. I would just be wasting time and money otherwise. I'm not ready or willing.