for me... because I think I'm a waste of oxygen

people around me have lives, they know what they are doing, they have plans.

me?. all I do is sit, eat, accessively, and get hated on by most (if not all) people

for me it's also a fear. it might sound strange, but I want to be in control of when I die.. I don't just want to not know.

and thirdly, 1 of my biggist fears is growing old and having nothing to show in my life

and guess what?

this is what's happening. my worst fear has actually been realised

but then I have so little experience of how to live in the world, and how to survive, I can't seem to change it

it's just easier to give up